Sometimes life leaves us clueless about what we really want to pursue. Till I completed my degree I was never in a dilemma about what to do next as something would eventually crop up. But now when am done with the first episode of my life, time has arrived when I need to rack my brains again and figure out what I want to do with the next chapter of my life.
Like my uncle used to keep asking me time and again: “Where do you see yourself 10- 20 years from now?" I used to laugh and answer with ease that I wished to be a copywriter or a creative writer. But right now I feel differently as getting a writer's job doesn't seem easy anymore. What I feel I should rightly get and what I ultimately get resemble two sides of the coin. When you bet on heads or tails the result rests solely upon your luck. The last time I blogged I wrote about how people help us endure life and live it.
The only reason I've been able to maintain my cool and not get so pressurized about the entire scene is because I have a family behind me. All the credit goes to them as I don't think I would be able to continue this journey alone.
Life is very tricky as it trips you when you least expect it. We can never take the good life we have for granted as you never know what might happen next. More than anything else I live in fear of whether I will just be a writer to myself or the world I yearn to write for. I know writing does not guarantee you a heavy pack of notes to squander on your self but what I know is that I love pursuing my preoccupation on life in some form or the other. Writing allows you to think about life at multiple levels- be it at the personal level or objective level. It lets me meet the person I am inside.
People who are open with their feelings are the ones who live a healthy life and relationship. But that does not mean they remain sane all life. For who decides what madness is all about. Our obsession about something may start of as something healthy but end up making us a maniac. We are creations of our own doings.
Even now as I sit here typing I wonder what I’m doing here and what my role is on planet earth. Is it to play the life I see or the life seen by others? If the life seen by others holds more promise do I say goodbye to the dreams I have and embrace it? Or dislodge it as a nightmare I should have never had. These are questions that constantly haunt me and re-affirm in me a call a change. If change is the answer to me getting a job, am willing to take that chance as I see no sense in waiting for someone to accept the talent I possess.
Talent is inbuilt and not everyone becomes aware of what they have. Those who receive this gift from God should not let it go to waste. I know the talent I have is yet to open out its wings and fly. I know everything takes time. But what I realize right now is that we need to take life as it comes and not expect too much out of it. For who knows what decision of ours will steer us into the path we long desired.
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